The life i lead sucks!

[jokostel]

Im tired of this place, the job, the morons i gotta work with, the other things i gotta do for /at work.... this is a 40+hr a week job for less pay than a junkie at macdonlads gets....its flat out insulting. Im done. This December Im applying for a palace chase and going home.There is way to much for me to do when i get back home..I just cannot deal with this anymore... heck im even having what id call stress induced "nightmares".... Well not necesarily nightmares but dreams of things i wish i wouldve had the courage do accomplish.... put it that way.

Tonight while i sit here thinkin about things.... i would seriously give everything i have and give up the friends ive made in the past 3 years to go back to my 1985 s10 blazer all rusted out... and my job at sykes again... God i would seriously give anything. Hindsight is always 20/20.. wish i wouldve known then what i know now.


sorry bout the vent but .... between the crap goin on back home, and the girl that got away, and the job ... life has become a burden and not a blessing.

[thekingofpain]

Which layer of hell are you now residing?

[John Prophet]

With the prevailing side currents and drafts in this forum I almost hate to broach the subject...but SERIOUSLY..you sound exactly like I did before I surrendered my life to Jesus....my life was in a mess, no direction, gloom and doom...no possibilities.

Now things are like totally different...I have purpose, peace, insight, great future outlook etc. Not that I am perfect or that my life is....but it is TOTALLY different than before.....no comparison, I am not even the same man, thats how dramatic it is.

Thats also why I am clueless about atheists and those who doubt God....if I could just do the Vulcan 'Mind meld' on them they would see the reality of it....but if you try to find it by "logic" you WONT find it.....like you said "hind sight" is 20/20---and at some point we all need to sort of look and say "gee, doing things MY way has gotten me now where but in a dead end position".....and the mistake we try to make is to try to "fix it" ourselves....no way, we werent smart enough to AVOID the dead end...so how are we going to "FIX IT" and then "avoid" it in the future, lol.

Surrender and let Jesus lead the way...only POSSIBLE answer. Its like being on a trip and making a wrong turn..the farther you go on that wrong road, the more backtracking youll have to do eventually.

JP

[Knothead]

Jokostel, take it from one who knows...

Take a pinch of boredom with present circumstances...and look at it real hard... then grab:

A handful of dreams for the future...

A dash of creativity...

A great gob of hard work (nothing without labor, after all )

Mix thoroughly, and simmer day after day, for as long as it takes...

Serve with a big grin! You did it!

Well, the thing is, when we remember past places seems that, well at least I do, I only remember the good stuff.
You never remember the stuff you hated about it..
I have fond memories of everywhere I lived.... But if you look at it critically the reasons you left come back to you.

Seems to me you need to start working on living in the now. OK, so you can leave and go back home, but until you do, make the most of where you are and look for things to do, you have time off, get into something. Stop with all the if I's...

Make plans for when you go home. Start thinking about college.
Live in the now, so when you are 40 you don't have 20 years of nightmares about what you wish you'd done.

What will you do when you get home?

[jokostel]

tkop i think im in the 9th layer.... its pretty warm down here...hehe
but as far as God goes..... him and I got into a disagreement back in 1993... he thought my grandfather should die... i didnt... so i pretty much altogether going to church execpt for the occasional christmas thing with the family... and stopped praying in general... religion for me seems about as pointless as believing im going to win the lottery tomarrow.I dunno.

[jokostel]

Id like to basically start life where i left off..... in the military, until you get out.... you are basically dead to the enviroment that you wish to live and are a shadow. All i wanna do is just go home, get a job there, get to work on an aviation career as a pilot instead of doing the grunt work. Either that or finish off my CCNA and goto work for the state, pulling in a decent amount of income.... all in all... i just want the life im denied.... but in a way you can say that i threw that out the window for 4 more years.... i say i was just to damned ignorant to realise what i truly wanted in life.

[Warthog]

C'mon d00d, the USAF can't be THAT bad

I work INSANE hours all the time...it's great!...10-18 hour shifts....you could be in Iraq getting shot at. There is worse in life, bud.

Warthog

Well since you didn't know that when you joined up, sounds like the Army did work! Now you have direction and goal. You still have the time to fine tune everything so you'll hit the pavement running when you do get home. Now follow Knothead's recipe!

BTW, God will still be there when you are done being mad at Him too, patiently waiting for you. There have been times I thought I knew what was best too.

Now get out of that I'm helpless to be happy Da military man is keepin me down funk. Open your eyes and enjoy where you are now...

Auntie sez...
Live now, not past or future, do that and you miss your life.


Oooh Oooh !!!
Heres one!!! This one's better
Life is not a dress rehearsal.

say goodbye surreal,,,

[Warthog]

Hey...he's not in the Army (I am)...he's in the air farce

Warthog