sometimes...

[Blazer06]

i wish that i could jsut be like all my friends, carefree and stupid. high and drunk, having the best and worst times of my life. (the partys, and the hangovers)

but i never will be. many of my teachers, trainers, and my emplyer have told me basically not to be the soilder i am. to be humorous, laugh at jokes, get excitited. and its not that im not necassarily happy, but i cant show it. i dont know how. it doesnt come natrually.

some of my friends sometimes get upset because i dont seem to share their excitment at all, even look dull and dis-interested, when really im just as interested as they are.

how can i show my feelings, translate them into something other people can see. my close friends nkow thats the way i am, but how can i not be so serious abot situations, even when they dont call for it?


Blaze

[Hawkeye]

You can start by slowing down when you type, maybe?

-George

[Beemer]

Stay away from the computer for a while and watch the comedy channel more. Tell some jokes, go out fox hunting with your buddies, and dance lots at the bars. (You don't have to drink yourself under the table to have a good time.)

Change your ways slightly to accomadate the things that will let you release a bit.

Cheers!

[Blazer06]

okay i dont drink... and im 15. lol

sorry tired... so my typings really bad. dont nkow why.. but thats the way it is.

i guess the biggest problem is... im not allowed to hang out with my buddies, and stuff like that. it takes days to get permission to goto the movies or somthing, and then i have to get my own transportation and everything.


Blaze

here blaze.
http://www.iespell.com/


not everyone shows the same emotions about a certain topic or subject. some people might be excited about an item/idea/event but dont jump up and down and scream saying "OMG I LOVE IT" people need to realize everyone is different and have different ways of showing it.

[samwichse]

i wish that i could jsut be like all my friends, carefree and stupid. high and drunk, having the best and worst times of my life. (the partys, and the hangovers)

Don't fall into the trap of thinking everyone doesn't feel like you do at least sometimes. One of two things is true in the case of your friends

1) ignorance is bliss.
2) they're better at hiding it.

My father was a big frat boy when he went to college, and he told me the story of this frat brother of his back in the 60's. Everybody was always wanting to hang out with this guy, he was the big man on campus, at every party, always looking like he was having a great time of it.

Then one day he tried to burn down the frat house. He later told the police that the reason he did it was because he was so lonely and had no friends.

I've come across similar things happening at school. So don't worry that "everyone else is happier or less serious" or something.

As for not being so serious yourself... well I broke the ice on that one with a little of the liquid courage

Sam

<monologue>
Hey man, I've got ten years on you. I was just like you when I was fifteen, and I haven't changed. People that give a crap will know how you are and they'll be able to tell whether you're enjoying yourself whether you're smiling or not. I NEVER make a good first impression on people I meet because I rarely smile, or show any sort of interest in what they're saying, or even any emotion at all. But the people that that doesn't put off actually listen to what I say and realize that I'm not just being a jerk, that's just the way I am. In high school it's hard to keep up with all the merrymaking and the drama and the crap. The drama especially. Everyone expects you to care about who stole who's boyfriend and who's going to be at what party on Saturday, but it's pretty pointless in the long run, isn't it? Empty people and victims of the emotional wrecking ball that is high school society. I almost dropped out just because I didn't give a crap and teachers were always on my case about it. Showing no interest in stupidity isn't a crime, but you stick out when you question the set way of thinking and people will always assume there's something wrong with you because of it. But that's what being unique is about, making people question.

"Think for yourself, question authority." - Timothy Leary

I think you think for yourself a lot, Blaise, and in the long run, you'll turn out better than the high school drunks and burnouts who only care about who they look better than and what party they're going to next. And I think if you look around, if you have a big school anyway, you'll probably find out that there's more kids like you than you think.

But there is one thing I've learned to do in the past ten years, and that's laugh. I still don't smile very often, but I do laugh. That's my only suggestion. I wish I'd learned how sooner.
</monologue>

[originel]

whir has some wise words there.

I always felt kinda out of place in high school cause i didn't enjoy a lot of the same things other kids did. I didn't drink or smoke or had the desire to then and i didn't like parties, and that distaste has only grown, and in general i found everyone to be too stupid. My problem was that i was lonely and wanted companions so i still tried to fit in and stuff and so i had "friends" and such, but from all that of all the people i knew there was only one guy i would really call my friend, one guy i could really count on when things got tough and we had known each other since elementary (we're still friends in fact) and the rest was basically one big sherade in an attempt to feel normal. I found my place in theatre and had fun there actually, but as for the actual "social life" i had it was pretty much abismal outside of theatre. But i still got stuck in the "popularity trap" as i like to call it. i always felt like i was never good enough that these people i felt were too stupid didn't really care about me. It really got to me too and i can't say i was ever very happy in high school. anyways, i'm tired and rambling and not really sure where i'm going with this.

Since i've gotten into college i've learned how incredibly pointless high school is and how screwed up it is. The whol social aspect of high school is a game, and in the grand scheme of things a very pointless and stupid game and often times people like us just aren't good at it because we don't want to play the game but are forced to.

my advice is to not care what other people think because everything will change when you get out of high school. you only have a few years to deal with high school, but a lifetime to deal with yourself. so just be yourself and not worry about them. they're not as happy as they appear. Most importantly just enjoy life, it doesn't matter if others see you enjoying it so long as you are enjoying it. Friends are important, don't get me wrong (as long as they are true friends), but just remember that you never know where you will be in 4 years because everything changes after you graduate, and for the better too.

btw...side note: i think your parents are terrible for controlling you so much, i'm sorry you are in that position. i hope you can make the best of it and please remember they are doing what they think is best for you, even if they are wrong and try not to let it affect your life too much. i've seen several people with similar backgrounds that have just lost themselves in a downward spiral when the reins were let loose. and alcohol really isn't the answer. i've been there and i can say that going out and partying and getting drunk won't get rid of your problems. i wont lie and say it's not fun because it's actually quite fun (until the next morning anyways), but you can do some INCREDIBLY STUPID stuff in the process which can be VERY bad. alcohol is not bad in moderation (in fact i still have a drink from time to time) and isn't really the culprit. it's the environment it puts you in...anyways i'm rambling again and that's a long way off. best of luck to you blaise

[f1oored]

Hey Texas Tech, I don't think you a college kid really have any business judging how his parents raise him. At least they care enough to actually be parents. Most of the kids today are raising themselves. The kid is 15, he shouldn't be running around unchecked.

Blaze - I think beemer got it right. Ditch the computer for a while and focus on other stuff. The fact that you are asking this type of question in a computer forum should throw up some flags. Spend some more time with friends that don't have avatars.

[U-96]

can I join the club too? My fiancee always has a go at me because she thinks I'm being miserable in company, when really I have little interest in trivial conversation for the sake of it. I don't care if your favorite team won at the weekend or your neighbour's friend is trying for a baby, okay?

Likewise playing board (bored ) games with the family at Christmas, watching TV, blah blah blah. Yet I can scale model, read or play computer games (especially strategy/simulations) for hours, so it's not an attention span thing. Maybe I'm mildly autistic or nascent serial killer or something

As a result I have a small social circle - a handful of very trusted life-long friends (most of who think on similar lines) and are similarly emotionally disinterested in what generally passes for social intercourse. Sure we care about things, but I suppose we place different priorities on what we consider worth spending time on.

While that might have drawbacks in some regards, I also find that for the same reason I need to be *very* inconvenienced to become irritated with things, and rarely panic or get annoyed when faced with problems. I tend to asked a fair bit to be a mediator or fixer when things go wrong for other people.

So don't worry, Blazer, plenty of us around. You sound like a smart guy, and as others have already said, have demonstrated that you can think for yourself and don't follow the crowd. You've already got a head start in life on many of your contemporaries