Bleh

[lost-and-found]

There it goes, another chance.....well, it went past me without as much as a shoulder shrug on my part. Oh, how I hate myself sometimes. What is the problem? Well, my damned shyness when it comes to talking to the ladies. I don't know how it started, but for a long time already whenever I find a girl that I might be interested in I am unable to even look at her without having to turn my face away for fear that "she might find out my true feelings." I know, I know...I'm so paranoic, and that's what I hate about myself. It's valentines day, There's been a lady Ive been pursuing for the last few months....she sitll doesn't know how I feel about her. Yes, we talk (oh, don't even get me started on how much my fingers shook after a week of forcing myself to type something to her on AIM), well, in reality we chat. I do have her phone number but I know i could never in a million years get myself to call her. So I decided to send her a valentines card...one of those cute e-cards. I chose one form hallmark where it's a computer geek bear sending a heart through the phone lines to the lady-bear PC. WEll, in the card I wrote something to the effect of "I know this is a geeky way to ask, but "Will you be my valentine?"

Just ask the guys on IRC how afraid I was of going onto AIM and finding out what she thinks.....they were practically yelliing at me and finally forced me to sing on. She signe don a few minutes afterwards (which I find very, very weird, since it was practically within seconds of me signing on, like she's watching me from another nickname or something). All she said was "Thanks for the cute card." And even though the guys on the IRC were forcing me to say "No problem, when I saw it I thought of you." I just could not do it. I thought I would end up with a heart attack as it was. So finally in a few seconds she says "I gotta go. All I wanted to do was thank you for the card." And finally after much fighting with myself I blurted out "well, ttyl, I hope ya liked it" THE END.

Now, here's where I'm troubled, thoughout all those months she hasn't given me anything to go one dammit. The cell phone that she gave me was during when I asked her to go skiing...which in the end got cancelled when her car broke down.

We live about 40 miles apart, and I have no way of getting to her because I'm not allowed to drive on the freeways because of my crappy eyesight.....and that's the only way to her, and I kind off feel bad about ever asking her to drive an hour to my house so we could go to a movie or something. Not that I could ever get myself to say that, but that's another story.....

Somebody please smack me with something...PLEASE

[Warthog]

*SMACKS LAF FIFTY FREAKING THOUSAND JILLION TIMES*

C'MON man...it's freaking instant messaging for crying out loud! You're TYPING...you could be a 43yr old, slightly balding, car mechanic if you wanted to be! WTF?!

VOYTEK my man, you keep coming to me/us to get help but refuse to take advice and keep pissing away your chances. Where do you want to go from here? What are you trying to accomplish? I don't mean with her necessarily, but with ANYone. Yeah yeah yeah sure you could "wait around for the right one" but waiting around is not sitting in your room for the next several years hoping that some miracle chic will show up, like the stinkin UPS lady turns out to be the woman of your dreams. Go out, do stuff, hell if I know...at least start off being friends with females to get used to talking to them, maybe they'll introduce you to their friends, maybe you'll hit it off...gotta start somewhere bud.

Warthog (definately NOT an expert on this subject)

[lost-and-found]

see, that 43 year old thing doesn't work unfortunately, cause I have met her in person............

[Warthog]

You should be very comfortable talking on IM...you have all the time in the world to think of something to say - wtf, you don't even have to think of it half the time - go on the chat

What's the prob? Are you way too friggin afraid of what she will think of you? Stop giving a shiznit! Know what? Today while me and 2 other MPs were at the gate checking IDs, we all put on these ghey arse looking issued Aviator sunglasses (bwahahaha) - we knew we looked ghey and like stereotypical cops but it was hilarious....stop giving a crap about what people think man.

Warthog

[The Real Bingo]

Originally posted by Warthog
stop giving a crap about what people think man.

Agreed. The only way to get anywhere in this world is to have confidence in yourself. If you dont believe in yourself, who will? You gotta have the mindset that you are the greatest person who has ever walked the planet. Just dont go around telling people that or they will beat you up.

Good luck, sir.

[lost-and-found]

Dude, I don't give a crap what others think of me.....hell, several times I dressed in my Linux Halloween costume and went to the bowling alley dressed like that. I wish I could be as comfortable about this situation. I don't know what the hell is causing htis. Dude, I know you've given me tons of advice, but you must realize that I hate myself for not listening to you guys, and there is nothing anyone can say right now to make me do something, even if it seem just the normal thing in the world, when it comes to dealing with the "chosen" ladies.

[Warthog]

You gotta have the mindset that you are the greatest person who has ever walked the planet.

bwahahaha yes you do (to a limit)

Warthog

[The Real Bingo]

If this about women then it shouldnt be a big deal. Just imagine her with a beard, a deep voice, and man hands. Be yourself. You wouldnt want her liking you for being someone you are not, would you?

[brandon184]

Quit being a weener.

IM provides you the ability to talk about whatever you want to, however you want to... There isn't necessarily any sort of connotation attached with anything, unless you want there to be.

Who cares what she thinks of what you say over IM? It's not like there's a gun to your head, and if you say the wrong thing your brains are going to be splattered all over the wall.

There's not much that anyone can do or say that will miraculously help you out... Other than snap yourself out of it and be a man! Because I think that's about the extent of what you need to be told, you crazy kid.

Look at it this way, even if you do really care about her... If she has a huge problem with you saying something nice over IM, perhaps she isn't worth it?

Brandon

[lost-and-found]

Look at it this way, even if you do really care about her... If she has a huge problem with you saying something nice over IM, perhaps she isn't worth it?

No, it's not her being not worth it, it's me being a sissy....yes, I know full on that I'm a big sissy. And I hate how people say that "admitting that having a problem is the first step to solving the problem." Cause it's such a small step that it isn't even part of the solution.

I believe my problem also is facing rejection. I'm afraid, that she says the most dreaded line "just wanna be friends." I don't know, I'm so confused that I dont even want to think right now.