[Solid Snake]

Just as of yesterday, I hit the end of a very painful relationship. A girl who I met five years ago told me she would be coming to my university. She was pretty much everything I wanted but thought I couldn't have. It was the summer when I heard this. When fall came she didn't show up. The reason for this is because she wasn't yet 18 and her father wouldn't let her go to school. She told me she would be with me second semester when she turned 18. Waiting was hard but I went through with it because to me, she was the answer to all that was missing in my life. Well one thing lead to another and it became a sort of long distance relationship. I begged her to come visit me but all I ever got was excuses. Two days ago I dragged it out of her that she for some reason never planned on coming to my school. She led me on because I made her feel good, made her feel loved. We're talking about thousands of minutes on the phone every month. There was a lot being said, but in the end she didn't want me. I feel strange after the fact, lonely, free and in pain. Thinking about girls and where the good ones are out there makes me feel depressed. As I grow older, I think all the good girls are taken. I'm fairly inexperienced with girls so I limit myself to girls with "low-milage". Before, I found a girl I was completely into and she tore me apart. On one hand I want to find my girl before she dissapears, on the other I feel too hurt to start something new. What's best for a guy who's been badly hurt?