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Hey everyone...
Although I realize that many of you are in MUCH better understanding of the "big picture," of trade and foreign policy and such, I am not amoung your ranks.
As a student due to graduate with my BS in IT this April, there is not a day that goes by that I am not scared, TO DEATH, of what the hell I am supposed to do!
I am 21 years old, ahead of most people my age in terms of education. To be honest, I wish I wasnt! I am leaving to go into the worst job market I have seen in my short life. I have considered graduate school (to weather the storm) but have pretty much given up on that for several reasons.
First, all I am truly into, what is really my passion, is computers and networking. But no one is hiring in those fields and if they are they want 5-8 years experience!!!! So why sink money into doing something that doesn't count for anything!
Right now I am working as a telemarketer for a major north-east cable provider (not hard to figure out who). I look at the people around me, good people, with degrees and some who were small business owners, and now look at them! (NOTE: I know that some are here as a result of their own mistakes but most arn't). I talk every day to hundreds of people ever day who are just as scared as I am because they have no money to buy what I'm selling. I have had to reduce myself to leaving out key parts of the truth to survive, to get a paycheck every 2 weeks. No, wait, make that - I LIE TO SURVIVE.
What the hell kind of life is this? I want to get married to my girlfriend but I am scared that I won't be able to provide for her, that I will be a drain on her finances when she graduates. (BTW she has 120k in school loans to pay off).
Do I blame myself? A little bit. I sometimes wonder that if I had a more go-get-um attitude I would be more sucessful... I'm trying daily to improve that...
Do I blame the government? Quite a bit. They have given breaks to people who don't need them for years
Do I blame corporations? Yes. They have no other interests than furthering their bottom line. That's not the way it should be.
Sorry if this post demoralizes or upsets but it's what I have to live with, along with millions of others, every day.
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